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Out of the Shadows

This short doc follows Julian Zatarain, who arrived to the US at age 13 and, despite being undocumented, has joined the city government of his hometown Huntington park. Directed by Andrea Porras Madero.
Show transcript
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My name is Juliana.
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I'm 22 years old.
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I was born and raised in Sinaloa, Mexico, specifically in
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the small town of El Rosario, Sinaloa.
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My grandpa passed away.
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It was only me and my grandma, my grandma couldn't take care
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of me anymore.
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And my mom was here and she offer uh you know, a place where to
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live, where to stay here in the US.
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And that's why I came here.
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My family wouldn't be the only family.
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Unfortunately, I think it's an epidemic that when you're
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an immigrant, what uh usually happens that the family will
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come here and they will send for their kids after they raise
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the money.
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What happens with that?
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It's that when you bring your kid, they don't recognize you
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that's exactly what happens to me.
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I don't, I don't recognize my mom and I don't refer to my mama's
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ma I refer to her, my mama's for her for her first name because
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I don't see my mom as a mom.
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Two.
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Yes, I have a couple of we, my mom, I always needed to find a home
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and my home has never been in my house.
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It's always been outside my house now.
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It's my community right now during a political campaign.
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That's my home, everyone and there's my family.
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I mean, I, I don't take for granted my family but a little piece
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of me knows where I go to sleep.
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It's not my home.
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I don't know whether I consider myself an activist or not.
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I just know I'm a very involved, uh, resident of my community
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For me it's more I'm trying to do what I think is right on my,
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my little space on my city when they told me you're gonna become
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a commissioner.
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I remember thinking, should I?
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What a that was my biggest worry.
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As I get there, I see a bunch of cameras, I see a bunch of reporters
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around and here, I'm thinking what's happening, right?
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Why are so many people here?
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And then one of the council members talked to me and said, well
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it's the first time in, in the history of the United States
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an undocumented individual being a commissioner.
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A lot of the times when you're in the, at a council meeting and
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then you hear these negative thoughts coming out of people's
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mouths, you know, people attacking you directly and attacking
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your family directly.
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It gets to you at some point, I'm here protesting Huntington
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Park.
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They shouldn't even be here, period.
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So why don't you rescind this appointment in the meantime
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Why aren't you respecting our law?
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They're trying to impose their Mexican will on we, the people
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those traditions could have been given to an American.
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If you are illegal, you are illegal, you are illegal.
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You do not have rights.
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So I'm sitting home thinking maybe I, I should resign after
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seeing so much opposition, maybe I really don't deserve to
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do this.
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But then when you become silent about the things that matter
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is not fair for me.
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It's not fair for my family and it's not fair for my people.
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I mean, because this means so much for them, it means so much
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for the whole community and very few having the courage to
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actually step out of the shadows.
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And you're telling, no, I'm a coward.
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I can do it that I wasn't going to allow that to happen.
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So the next meeting I went, I said, OK, they're gonna have to
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arrest me because I'm not leaving until I take my oath.
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By the end of the day when you go home to your family is remember
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one thing tomorrow, the sun will shine and you have to go out
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there and be the best person that you can because at the end
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of the day, what matters is they are at home.
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It's called Earth and our family is called.