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Confessions of A Cuaima

Little by little, the Cuaima inside of me started growing.
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00:07
Hey guys, I should go.
00:08
Laura.
00:08
Damn it, it's louder.
00:09
Have you guys ever heard of the term?
00:11
Follow me, let me school you.
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The term comes from Venezuela.
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Basically, it's a woman that's super duper jealous.
00:19
Now, I know you're thinking, oh my God, that's so sexist.
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Not all women are jealous.
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Men can be jealous too.
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Yes, you're right.
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Men can be jealous too.
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But I don't know what the word for the men is now.
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I was born with a little inside of me.
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Why?
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Because my mom was a Guma herself.
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She's no longer a Guma but she still has a gui side of her just
00:35
like we all do.
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The guan side of me started acting up when I was young and naive
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and I didn't know anything about love.
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I was with a boyfriend who loved me very much, but he was crazy
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He cheated on me a lot.
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The first time it happened, he cheated on me with his neighbor
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and I was like, did you cheat on me?
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He was like, no.
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And I'm like, OK, but did you cheat on me?
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And he started crying?
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He's like, yes, I'm sorry.
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And I was like, it's ok.
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I forgive you.
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But then you know what happened?
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Little by little the inside of me started growing and growing
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and growing.
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Every time he cheated on me, she became paranoid and she was
01:06
always like, where are you at?
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Where are you going?
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Who are you with?
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How much money are you spending?
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Why am I not coming with you?
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What are you gonna do?
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Wait, what, what's happening?
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Right.
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I became a and it was awful.
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I did not like being a guma but I felt like he led me to it.
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I know I'm not supposed to blame anyone for how I'm feeling
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and my actions.
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But at the end of the day, it was low key his fault.
01:25
I know it was your fault.
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Don't play.
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I should have known better.
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I should have left the relationship a long time ago even though
01:30
it was his fault.
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But still I'm taking responsibility.
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I think that the most thing that I have ever done was we had been
01:37
dating my ex and I, and I saw a video of him and a girl on Facebook
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and they were hugging and she was flirting all upon him.
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And I had been telling him I'm like, I don't want you near her
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I don't want you to talk to her because I don't like her because
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I know she likes you.
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And yet there was a video of them that surfaced.
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And so I was so upset, I ripped up all of our pictures and then
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I called his work.
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He was a bus boy at the time and I was like, hi, may I please speak
02:02
to this person?
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And they're like, oh, he's working and I was like, it's an emergency
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and they're like, oh, ok.
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So when he answered the phone, he's like, hey, baby, what's
02:09
up, what's up is everything ok.
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And I'm like, why are you away, please?
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You?
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I and so I broke up with him the next day I got back with him.
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Why?
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Because I'm a, that's just what we do also.
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I was young and naive, like I said, I'm not perfect.
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Anyway, at the end of the day, don't be with someone who's cheating
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on you.
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Listen to your inner.
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That's why we have it.
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It's like a sick sense except in Venezuela.
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We just call it a that's all it is.
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I know mine is still inside of me.
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Let me tell you right now.
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If my boyfriend would start acting up, my would be like, because
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she knows that's why I have her.
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We need that, that sixth sense.
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Do you guys feel like you guys have a inside of you?
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Do you guys have that sixth sense?
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Not only for women, men could have it too.
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Women could be horrible women as well.
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I'm not biased.
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I'm just talking from my perspective, from my experiences
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Let me know your experiences.
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I'll read them.
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Y'all know.
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I do hold up.
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You know what I haven't heard from my boyfriend in like, 30
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minutes.
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I don't even know what's happening.