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I've never felt so alone in my life.
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I felt very unwanted and uh neglected and like, I didn't have
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Like I just didn't feel supported.
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What I think was going through their head was just pure disappointment
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because we grew up, I grew up in such a religious household
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and it was very structured and I would go to church at least
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like five times a week and it was just my life and I, yeah, they
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were just disappointed looking back.
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What do you think was going through your mom's head, your,
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Uh When you told them, I think a number of things, but I think
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two things that come to mind is I think they were worried initially
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And then a second part was them mourning the ideas that they
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had for me, the life that they had for me.
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And like, I could see them kind of like that drifting away and
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that was no longer like a thing for them.
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Yeah, I was like, mortified because I wasn't ready.
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Like when I remember my mom kind of confronted me about finding
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pictures in my room of me and, like my first girlfriend, it
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was tragic because I, like, felt like I was kind of forced out
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you know, and I was kind of done hiding and, like, lying to
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my parents and family about who I was.
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So, I kind of just plucked up the courage and I said, well, yeah
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It was like, devastating for them and for me too.
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What are you doing over there?
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I'm, what are you doing?
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Oh, but not as it, that preferential sexual.
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Here in here it was, uh, relieving and I don't know that she
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actually, like, felt that way but it's, it's really nice to
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It took a long time.
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I feel so loved and accepted and heard and understood.
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I remember the first time I had a crush on the same sex.
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I was, I think, like, in first grade.
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I think I might have been, I think in third grade and it was my
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friend's, um, brother but it was like, you know, your best
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So it was just like, oh, you know, I kind of have a crush on them
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but, and I think, um, like my third grade teacher here.
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So, and I just remember having a crush on him because he was
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a skater and, like, it was just very youthful.
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Yeah, this is kind of embarrassing.
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It was a cartoon, like, it was an animation.
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It was Meg from Hercules.
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That was my first crush.
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Yeah, she was a babe, man.
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